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The cold is just starting to set in now. The leaves are are parading beautiful shades of amber, crumbly cinnamon brown and crackling crimson red; they know it’s their time to go. In parting this world, they leave a colourful mark on ours. The air is fresh, cold and snappy. The scent of Autumn fills my lungs, tumbles through my being and consumes me. This is still my favourite time of year. The leaves are falling, I am too.

With mucky boots, scarves and hats, we venture through the colours and smells. As we stroll the down these crimson roads with a foliage rooftop protecting us from any wind; the colours saturate our path and drown out any sign that summer was here. These outings help me make sense of the thoughts in my head, the photographs help me mould the thoughts and work out where they are supposed to be.

My chosen adventure companion’s create a space for me to just be – with my thoughts and with my loss. As we walk, we talk and laugh, our chatter is the only sound around for miles. Its pleasant and warm and it pulls me from my own head. Its moments like this I wish I could wrap myself up in and hibernate inside.

The season seems to soothe my sadness, the time of year when everything is dying, decaying and fall apart. It seems like an appropriate time for mourning. Mourning life, mourning her life. The branches are bare now, they have lost their protection from the upcoming winter months, they know its going to be hard. We know that like clockwork, springtime will arrive again. With her youthful, bright seduction the frozen rivers will run freely and the fields will bloom; we just have to wait.

And.. while I wait, through the long winter months, I can only really try focus on each day at at time; each minute at a time. With great loss, grief and sadness comes an exhaustion I can’t overcome and an emptiness I cannot fill; try though I may; one day at a time.

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“As I try to break back into my other life, I realise all the lives I’ve lived. The ones I enjoyed immensely for their joy, the ones I fell in love with because I loved somebody or was being loved. And the lives I lived for the sake of someone else.”

When I pick up the camera now, sometimes it seems so foreign. My life lived behind the lens seems like a million years ago. And yet, it feels so right, like we were never apart. I realise now there is great strength in taking time out. Time to think, time to assess, time to have fun and time to grieve. All we have is time or lack there of, so we need to make sure we are  allocating it all the best we can.

I shot these photos of  Aising Duffy Catwalk Model Agency  recently up in Dublin. These are the start of a series of posts with Aisling. Although we’ve worked together many times over the last four years, this time was different, it was a reunion. Always a pleasure with this lady, she inspires me.

 

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Some days the internet is the only place to go, to escape to. I find myself hanging out here more than ever. Recently I have been reading up on Feminism, living ‘off the grid’, the history of Paganism & halloween, travel, grief, Pantheism, loss, sadness and more.

 

Check out some of my bookmarked links below..

 

★  It’s like a magical wonderland!! Take a look inside Iris Apfel’s three-bedroom Manhattan apartment. Gaff goals right there!

★  After a total binge on the Netflix newbie; ‘Stranger Things’ (UNREAL!) I stumbled across ‘Insecure’. The series are co-created by the amazing Issa Rae and Larry Wilmore follows a modern day African – American woman living in LA. This has to be some of the most refreshing TV I’ve seen in a long time. Reminiscent of the first series of GIRLS, this show doesn’t sugar coat or talk down at/to women, their careers or their relationships. Clever, funny, stylish and with the amazing Issa Rae MC-ing in every episode, it’s class!

★  The fragile ears of men is a very interesting read on the somewhat gender bashing of singer/artist Joanna Newsome (who’s song this site is named after!)

★  Hopefully these two boys will drop an new EP soon. Im waiting on baited breath till they do!! Seeing them live is on my bucketlist for 2017!

★  Love this ‘55 Movies you have to watch by the time you’re 30!’ list by MarieClaire Online. I’m working on this list at the moment. I think its missing Airplane, It’s A Wonderful Life and Monty Phython (Holy Grail) to name a few.

★ Have you seen The Tale of Thomas Burberry? Its the new campaign video for Burberry depicting the (dramatised) life of label’s the founder Thomas Burberry. Irish actor, Domhnall Gleeson stars as the big man himself alongside Sienna Miller. If it were a feature length, I’d watch!

★  I’m trying to find the Joy in Sadnessthis talk by Joey Van Den Heuvel really spoke to me and made me look at my emotions a little differently. We have to let sadness do her thing or happiness will never really understand.

★  Check out this TEDx talk on Grief by Elaine Mansfield. Another one I watched earlier this year and again just in the last month. Again, watching these videos has given me new outlooks on the subject.

★  Industrial farming is one of the worst crimes in history. Personally, Im trying to go meatless and hopefully as animal-byproduct free as I can.

★  Check out this guy and his family living Life Off The Grid in Leitrim! Maybe a bit too off the grid for me, but I like it!

★  Recently I have been listening to Hozier (Cherry Wine), Kendrick Lemar (Alright), Brigid Power (I Left Myself For Awhile), SZA & Chance The Rapper (Childsplay), Elliot Moss (Even Great Things) and Aslan (Wish You Were Here).

★  Dreamy Costa Rica sanctuary is home to 900 lucky dogs and I kinda want to live there now.

★  These are the most beautiful quotes from some well known Irish Writers. They have the power to take me to another world.

★  My favourite time of year, Samhain (or Halloween) is here!!! .  Read up on the origins of Samhain here.

Like those? Catch up on other Links I Love posts here

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Autumn is here, it’s my favourite time of year to take photos. Galway is sitting pretty in all her crimson and blush, it’s her time to shine! The days, which sunny and bright but with a sharp chill in the shade, afford us long walks in the countryside and adventures on the coast. I’ve created this FREE desktop wallpaper and phone background with some pretty autumnal imagery I shot recently.  To download the FREE desktop wallpaper, click here. For the phone background, click here. Download, enjoy and tweet me if you use them: @saibhegan

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